Are you there?

I sat on my back porch a few weeks ago. As I watched the beautiful pink and orange sun set behind a small cluster of magenta clouds in the light blue sky, so many curious questions and wonder filled thoughts flowed through my mind. A woodpecker pecked away at a telephone pole, birds sang their cheerful tune.
I looked around.
I thought, "beautiful."
I realized how short our time really is here; I need to enjoy what is right in front of me more often; take a moment to just sit, take it all in and just breath.
The trees were a gorgeous bright green, shimmering with a hint of sparkle from the sun's goldenrod kiss. The bird's song warmed my heart, while the bright red hot sun warmed my face.
I wondered,
Where is he?
Can he really be gone?
Can he see me?
Does he know I'm thinking about him?
I miss him.
Does he know he's gone?
What if he isn't there?
This went on for some time.
The sun disappeared below the horizon.
The birds' song continued.
The chill of the spring evening air drove my heavy heart back inside.